Selfie

Well, after a month it has become obvious that this blog is nothing more than my online diary.  And another way for me to talk to my BFF - myself!  It just means I can actually say what is truly on my mind.  Nobody will ignore me because they don't want to hear that I have had a bad day.  I do not have to pretend that my life I wonderful.  But I have some place to really vent and get my feeling out.

Today I took a selfie, which I have done before.  But 9 out of 10 times, they get deleted.  I do not like the way I look.  I am my worse critic.  This one however, turned out okay.  I even put it on Instagram.  I have been fighting depression lately, worse than normal.  I am to the point where I cry nearly every day.  Everything seems to be out of my control, I am having health issues and I just do not want to get out of bed most days.  And when I get home I try to go in the scrap room (which Tom has finally started working on again!) and I end up just sitting there.  I started packing more stuff up and getting it out of there.  The only thing I seem to be getting done - slowly - is going through and getting rid of things.  I am packing bags and boxes for Purple Heart.  Clothing, books.  I am getting rid of little knickknacks that used to mean so much to me.  I feel as if nothing means anything to me anymore.  Well the exception seems to be my dogs - some days.  But they let me know when they have spent too much time alone.  Another thing I cannot control.  Right now I am watching the clock...  praying 3:30 comes and I can go home, grab some wine and crawl under the covers until the alarm screams at me to get up and try to survive another day.

It's Finally Over!

So after 3 days of racing, I am relieved to say the season is finally over for us!  Baby is getting washed and taken apart and the motor will go out to be looked over and freshened up.


Now, onto our fall project...  The sun porch is loaded with boxes and shelves from my scrap room.  We started redoing the scrap room nearly 2 years ago.  Then racing season started and Tom never got back to my room.  So little by little I moved more stuff back into the room...  Well, bought a new cart and set of shelves and some storage bins.  And scrappy supplies, rather than digging through boxes for what I wanted to work with.  Can you blame me?  So now he has decided he wants to put a deck on the back of the house and change the rear windows of the sun porch into a sliding door so the dogs can go in and out from there rather than the driveway side.  NOW  he wants to start that.  Um...  That room cannot be started until our first project - THE SCRAP ROOM - is done and all those boxews and shelves are out of the sun room.  THEN Harley's crate is still in the room.  That needs to go to the basement.  And I have a large wood and glass entertainment center full of scrapbook stuff and my collection of James Patterson books that need to get boxed.  I am getting rid of that entertainment center and just using a smaller shelf, downsizing all the crap I had collected over the years and stuck   under that cabinet behind the closed doors!  I really like the ladder style bookcases and think I will put that, a chair or two in the sun room when its done but mostly keep the area open. 


So, I have a plan, and I intend to set it in motion.  Wish me luck because I will need it to keep my husband on track!